something very wierd and funny has been happening lately.
especially last saturday.

i wasnt feeling so good lately.
i was very down and unwell
so on sat i was with nik so that i can vent my anger
and cry out things.
so after a while of venting
i felt much better.
i really felt relieved.
after all the time consoloing me and everything
i have this tendency
to listen to 98degree song
the hardest thing.
when i was actually listening to that song
he told me, hey this song i think is meant for some other reason.
after a while
i was like laughing to myself.



98 Degrees - The Hardest Thing lyrics
Yeah ooh
We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrongAnd, baby, it's killing me, it's killing you
Both of us tryin' to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keepAnd someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleepI've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

ChorusIt's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you
I don't love youIt's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you I know that we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Dr. ZhivagoAll my love
I'll be sendingAnd you will never know'
Cause there can be no happy ending
Chorus
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you
I don't love youIt's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free
We're not meant to beIt's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you
Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can't stay
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

[Chorus]It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do(oo eyah)
To look you in the eye and tell you
I don't love youIt's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry(oh baby I)
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free
We're not meant to be(oo)
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you
Don't wanna live a lie
What to doOh yeah